My White Light Moment
With the energy of the cosmos now focused on our inner journey, our inner healing, our inner pain, I feel supported in sharing my "White light" experience with you.
If you have been following me for any length of time, you may recall my near-death-experience I described in the post: On The 10th Anniversary of My Death, and the events that have "gifted" me with my abilities to help others heal, in the post: How I ended Up Dying.
This has been a touchy subject for me over the years, but because of my soul contract I feel the need to share my experience in hopes of helping others who have experienced similar things. I will go more into detail about the events you are about to read in my book (if it ever feels complete enough to share), until then, I ask you to please be open minded to a world we aren't familiar with.
Before this event I did not believe in God. I always had a strong belief in a higher power but felt that the biblical version of God was not the same version that I believed in. I believed in angels. I believed in an afterlife. I believed that everything happened for a reason. That day laying on the operating table of my second emergency surgery, I experienced events that totally rattled my beliefs. I had a "white light" moment, that would change, my life forever.
I woke up on the operating table and heard all kinds of beeping sounds and doctors screaming. It was very bright as I opened my eyes. My eyes came into focus and I could see were the big surgery lamps over me as they hung from the ceiling. I could hear machines going off; sirens, and CODE BLUE being spoken over the loud speaker.
I sat up and swung my legs to the side and got up off the operating table. As I turned around to scope out the place, I noticed that there I was, still laying on the table. There were a group of doctors who were shoving tubes in me, one down my throat, others in my arms. Another group of doctors and nurses were still working to repair the hemorrhage in my abdomen from where they cut my baby out of me.
There were doctors frantically coming in and out of the operating room, responding to the CODE BLUE call.
And there I stood, over my own lifeless body.
Although I had no clue what was actually happening and how it could be even possible for this to be happening, I started frantically trying to get in the doctor's way. I was screaming at them to just let me go. I had a very difficult childhood and had struggled through a couple suicide attempts in my teens. I had recovered to the point where I no longer attempted to end my life, but I wasn't against dying by accident.
The truth was, if there was a button to end your life, "game over", it would have been pushed years ago. Especially now, having just been through the pregnancy from hell, I really didn't have much fight left in me. All I ever wanted was to be a Mom and now that dream was gone.
I was crying and trying to swipe the doctor's hands away, but just like I was dreaming, I was invisible to these people. No one could see me or hear me, and I couldn't physically make contact with anything I was trying to touch. It was as if I were a ghost and my touch sliced right through these people and objects I was trying to make contact with; as if I had disappeared.
I was having a fit at this point. I didn't want the doctors to save me. I didn't want to wake up and live through this life. I just wanted them to let me go.
In that moment the room lit up. Not as if someone opened the window to let the sun in, but more like this beautiful, mesmerizing, white light that penetrated every inch of that place in an awe-inspiring glow.
The truth is, I don't have the words in my vocabulary to truly describe this light. Not because I am unaware of the words to use in this instance, but because the words just simply don't exist in our language to describe the kind of light I was witnessing.
The light was coming in more and more, every time the operating doors swung opened. There were doctors entering and exiting through these doors where it seemed as if they were getting sucked up and spit out by this engulfing light. But it shocked me that they weren't even paying attention it. They were rushing around as if it were business as usual.
I started to turn away from myself laying on the operating table as I tried to walk towards the light. I had gotten to the end of the operating table where my physical body still lay, where my feet were secured in stirrups; and I was suddenly stuck in space. I was unable to move any further, as if magnets were keeping me from getting too far away from my body.
Still in a state of distress and confusion, I struggled to walk towards the light but couldn't make it past that point. I hung my head in defeat and the tears fell off my face. When I looked up there stood my grandmother. She had passed away when I was 9 years old, but yet there she stood smiling at me in that operating room.
I wanted to walk towards her but still couldn't move any further away from my body as it lay on the operating table than before. Nanny spoke no words to me, but she carried a face and smile that for some reason assured me that things were going to be okay.
The flicker of the white light still kept getting brighter with each opening of the OR doors. A man walked in but wasn't rushing like the others were. He was very calm and peaceful and walked to the right side of my Nanny were he stopped and folded his hands in front of him. I kept looking at my Nanny, but she showed me no signs of worry or concern.
The doors opened again filling the room with even more brightness and this time a girl walked in. I couldn't see her because her hair was long and covering her face from my view, but she wore the same hospital gown as I did. She walked behind my Nanny, and then behind the man, and turned to walk towards the operating table.
The closer she got, the more I started to scream, "NOOOOOO!" . I looked to my Nan and this strange man to stop this girl from coming near me or my body on the operating table, but neither of them moved.
I couldn't move.
I wasn't sure what she was doing, but I felt the need to stop it. She walked like a robot towards me and then jumped up on the table and laid down over my body.
Then I woke up.
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"Grounding" is a term you hear often and although people have a good idea of what it means, there's still a lot of confusion on what it is, how to do it, and why we should even do it in the first place.
Grounding (or earthing) is a practice in which you connect to the earth, to allow all parts of yourself integrate together as they connect to the universal energies of the earth. We are made up of our emotional body, our mental body, our Soul body, and our Physical body.
Those who are air dominate in their charts will be stuck in the mental body, using their intellectual minds to navigate through life. Those with water dominate elements in their chart will be mainly operating from their emotional and intuitive selves. Those with lots of fire in their charts take action and need to be on the move with all of their energy and drive, and those dominate in earth will be slow and steady, focused on their earthly tasks and chores.
Our soul body is our energetic make up of how all of the other bodies interact with one another. The completeness and integration of all parts of yourself equal your spirit, the energy that drives you through this earthly realm.
Grounding is important because it anchors each part of self to one another as you connect to the earth. It integrates your mental state with your emotional state, with your energy, passion and drive, and then harness that power within your physical body allowing you to operate from a balanced place of power.
Although there are more ways to ground then to connect with the earth, sticking your bare feet in grass, dirt, or sand is the quickest, cheapest and most efficient way to connect to source.
Depending on your elemental make up, there could be one form of grounding that works better for you over the other. Air signs (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius) need wind, electricity, and mind exercises. Water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces) needs water, salt, and emotional calming. Fire signs (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius) need exercise, focus, and water. Earth signs (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) need the dirt, the earth, nature.
One thing all the signs need is to ground.
When The Energy Boutique's SHOP opens its virtual doors on the 21st, I will be offering Grounding Mats. It is a mat that is filled with positive and negatived charged ions that, when you allow contact with your body, your energy will be anchored and integrated together.
This mat is a great tool to have at work to have under your desk, helping you to calm your stresses and make you more clear headed when interacting with your co-workers. This is also great for people who live in apartment buildings who don't have access to a green space. This is amazing to lay on during your yoga practice, sleep on, or sit on any time you are feeling over active in you mind, your heart, or are feeling overwhelmed with all of your access energy.
A Grounding Mat is a great tool to have access too, to provide the grounding effects at any time, in any situation. I can't wait for you to try it for yourself!
Marlee Henry
Psychic Advisor
The Energy Boutique
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The Hierophant
THE HIEROPHANT (05) is the 5th card in the Tarot's Major Arcana. It embodies the masculine energy, and the counterpart to THE HIGH PRIESTESS (02), serving as a figure of religious or spiritual guidance.
THE HIEROPHANT (05) can closely resemble a Pope or Religious teacher, as he blesses those who seek his counsel with wisdom and other worldly knowledge. He appears in the Tarot's artistry as a figure sitting between two pillars in a sacred space such as a temple. He wears 3 different coloured robes along with a 3 tiered crown, both symbolizing the 3 worlds he connects with (the conscious, the sub-conscious, and the super-conscious realms).
THE HIEROPHANT (05) points one hand to the sky funnelling blessings from heaven, as the other hand points to the blessings here on earth. Those who kneel before him, do so with the intention of learning life's mysteries, unlocking the secrets of the Universe, and seeing the integration of the blessings from both heaven and earth.
The energy surrounding this card when pulled in a reading, suggests an individual seeking spiritual wisdom, aligning with a traditional community of like-minded people, and entering into a new phase of spiritual development.